To Watch You Leaving . . .

To Watch You Leaving . . .

is to know such pain, it's jagged edges tearing into my soul. As a stake from the garden tears into the warm, dark earth.

To Watch You Leaving . . .

knowing all the while that never again will I fit myself, warm with sleep, against your solid back.
Nor hear your steady breathing. Or feel the beating of your heart.

To Watch You Leaving . . .

aware in every moment of every day that my dreams, my future; once tied with silken ribbons to yours, will never come to be.

And the mornings once so silent and hopeful, us gazing at the mountains and so gently awaiting forever - are now but small pieces of my past.

To Watch You Leaving . . .

your heart a tight fist of anger and your dry eyes betraying nothing of you. I cry for both of us, my love, because you will not.

Endless Memories

Endless Memories are what you've become

with evey single breath there is one
even the rising of a bright morning sun
brings back flashes of wonders you have done
there in the moon beams quickenings shine
are quick glances back into our loving times
even when clouds have grown cold and gray
pictures of you are here to always stay
when i close my eyes every single night
it still you i see in my dreams light
endless memories you have become
wishing i knew the truth just one
with the setting of the reddening sun
brings to me saddness knowing we are done
looking into that lonely moon beams shine
i'm so sorry for losing all this endless time
even when the rain clouds are an awful gray
loving you were the very best of all my days
endless memories are now just for me
some day soon you'll have these memories too you'll see

A Fool Like Me

Why does it hurt so bad
to lose something I never had
To have these feelings and nothing to do
just sit around and wait for you
Why is it so hard to move on
knowing what we had is gone
Is there a place where happiness is
Even though there's still a fizz
In my soul when you are around
your name is a beautiful sound
Now all I can do is wonder
I lost it all in one little blunder
By not telling you how I really feel
trying to act like its no big deal

Do you even care at all?

I just don't know how to feel,
If I should just give up,
Store away all emotion
And chalk it up as never meant to be.
I put away what I feel
And try to forget you.
But then you smile at me,
Or brush against me,
And I fall in love all over again.
Then you'll forget me
For awhile, pretend I'm not there.
I cry and wonder,
Do you even care at all?